I sit, there, like a trapped monkey, holding tight to what appears to be a piece of gold. Refusing to let it go. I am imprisoned with one hand on my phone unable to release my grip, as I watch my life slip away. Sometimes I don’t even watch. Instead, I focus on my hand, with a phone firmly in its grasp, and lose my life to oblivion.
How long, I wonder, how much time in this life, have I forfeited? Just a few minutes here and there, but has it been hours? Days? Even years now, that I gave to nothingness?
Feeling no pain sounds like it would be amazing. Pain, however, is a communicator and when we find every means possible to avoid feeling that pain, we are figuratively gouging our eyes out. When we ignore, mask or hide pain we are choosing to ignore what our body and mind is attempting to communicate with us. By avoiding addressing pain, we cannot identify and fix the root cause of the pain.